last day of the month

Today is 30.09.09, so I'll try to go back.....

04.09 ~ My brother went to Malaysia for a seminar, expenses shouldered by my parents and ehem, me! :)
08.09 ~ Mama Mary's bday, didn't hear the mass, I had a terrible headache. :(
10.09 ~ Metro train, yehey! First day of opening! Took some pictures then went to City Center.
14.09 ~ Again, I almost forgot the bday of my Aunts. (the twin sisters) heheh
16.09 ~ Received a card from my bf, didn't expect something from him, changes! :)
19.09 ~ ATLANTIS getaway! Took alot of pictures, dined in a fancy restaurant. Had a great day!
          ~IDENTITIES:
          1) They thought Badz and I were Malaysians :)
          2) They thought I'm a Japanese/Chinese
          3) Badz and I wearing the same dress but different color - hmmmmm, they thought we're twins, and they asked me
            "Maam kambal po kayo?" I replied "Opo" (with twinkle in my eyes) hahahhah lolz
20.09 ~ Went to Gold Souk, bought earrings for my Mom, sister - in law, and I still have 2, don't know to whom will I give this. :)
21.09 ~ Chikka Grill with Badz, Sherille and Rio! Tipsy! Singing, I mean shouting the lyrics of "Alone" hahhaha!
22.09 ~ Back to normal office hours, haaayyyzzzz.
23.09 ~ I started singing in the bus stop. hahhahah! (I can't find the camera) :)
25.09 ~ Buddy's big day! Missing her. Criminal Minds new episode, I love Morgan and I pity Hotchner.
27.09 ~ Big Day for my brother, Tatang Sammy, Jep and Ate Diane
28.09 ~ Realization! Hahahahhah!! Lolz
29.09 ~ Watched Smallville Season premiere. Yepee!
30.09 ~ Etisalat automatically deducted my load, now it's -1.28, at least I still have my i-net. hehhehe!
          ~ Don't know where's my labor card?
          ~  Month -end entries. hehhehe!

Fun filled month, I enjoyed Ramadan, taking nap from 4pm to 6pm. Very Lazy! Hahahhaha! Also it's a non-stop jogging, we did every other night, longer hours so there's nothing else to do. Of course how can I forget, I had a fight with my Mom, hehheheh!! I'll try to tell the story some other time.

one snap and it's all gone

14 May 2009
I was busy looking for a nice skirt then voila my new blackberry curve 8900 was on the floor, face down. I looked at it, don't know what should I do, will I dropped the skirt that I'm holding or will I pick - up my phone. I chose the latter.
I checked the screen, visible broken LCD, the power is On, but no image. There's a queue in the counter, I was 6th in the line, still, I've waited. I was physically present but my mind was somewhere else. I managed to pay the bill, then went out of the store. "Badz, we need to go home, get the box of my phone and the receipt then we'll go to City Center." I said that we no emotion at all. Then she asked me "what happened?" My phone's not working, it slipped my hand. Then, smiled, "it was broken." Can you imagine? I did smile.

We got on the cab, went home, the cab waited then off to City Center. In Sharaf DG, repair will take 15 days or a month. "I only used it in a month's time, Ok, do I need to pay now?, "No, Ma'am, first, our service center will check if this can be repaired if not then we will give you a call." Imagine, no assurance! 

I was calm when it happened,  I never cried, the phone costs me Dhs2,200.00 =)

I was devastated at first, then I silently prayed, I chose to think, "what good shall I get from this badluck." It is only a material thing. Life must go on. God made me realized that my life should not revolve on earthly things. That being a prisoner of material things can lead you to destruction.

Going to BK: (I still remember)
Boss: "How was your weekend?"
I replied: "Good and bad!"
Boss: "Why is that?"
I replied: Bad because my new phone is in the service center, it slipped my hand! Good, because I realized it is only a material thing.
Boss: "That's good, never indulge with material things and you should live your life to the fullest! You can do anything you want because you're still young.

The lesson I learned is far greater than the phone itself.
I got my phone in the hospital on 11 June 2009 (service center).

~ An officemate commented this morning "material things were lost in the great flood"
~ Just a snap of God's hand then everything will dissapear. Everything belongs to Him, everything comes from above.

A wake up call for all of us.

commercial..... a break.... a 25 mins. Ad...

Thinking how will I start this. Lolz. Actually, the feeling is so light, vibrations are sooooo good, I can't help but smile, even if there's no reason. Crazy it is! hahahhah!

What shall I call this, "Only interested in someone's brain!" Hmmmmm.... Nada! I can't find the exact word. Hahahhahahha! Can I just laugh the whole day! Lolz!

A photograph;
>solved the day
>answered the questions
>complemented the soon to be first step

I must say thank you to my dear friend, hahhahhha! I know you'll read this. Back on track, will concentrate on how to Ignore NR's, will focus on this crazy thing called Love, although you resisted and preferred action! Duh! Don't know if you'll excel doin' it. Lolz!

Commercial.... A break.... A 25 mins. advertisement....whatever it is.... it served the purpose....
I'm awake and I shall need the one step ahead, hopefully in the future.. *wink*

:)

united

All that I am,
all that I have I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims, The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours
(**)Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, allof my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you
(Repeat **)
What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you,
(Repeat **)

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Lord, please protect and bless;
those who have lost their loved ones
those who have lost their homes
those who are searching
those who doesn't have food
those who are grieving....
Embrace them and let them feel your presence,
help them see the goodness in this tragedy.
You stopped the rain after 6 hrs., thank you!
Another hour may cause more life.

You have all the answers Lord, you have all the reasons....
Yes, we are united again because of You.

good news>>>>>>>>

Coleen will tie the knot on 11 April 2010. Such a wonderful news. I'm really happy for her, finally she found her true happiness. I remember those days, when she used to cry over this guy, that made her feel less the woman she is. I pity the guy! Coleen Karma has a very strong personality, beautiful lady, with a good heart. West is lucky indeed. They'll have a wedding ceremony in China on 19 Feb 2010, I wanna go there. Hehhe! I will attend the Phil. wedding. I'll make sure of that. Another testimony that in this world, you'll meet someone who will tear your heart into pieces then someone will come along to fix it.

Genesis 2:18, 21-24Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.

Hmmmmm... I can feel that today will be a good day! :)

The grand question, Who will be next??? Lolz!

Single still;

1) Badz - of course she'll be on the top. hahhah!
2) Me - my mom concluded that if Badz won't get married then I won't get married too. Lols.
3) Melody - she should be first!!!!!!!
4) Ivy - hmmmm... no idea if she has a bf
5) Sherylle - the case will be "first bf will be the lasts", I bet on that.
5) Bambam - just broke - up, hmmmm
6) Lalaine - no update
7) Anne - no update
8) Jamie - she
9) Corinne - she have Cylde that's enough for the meantime
10) Maryann - ditto #5. heheh!

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Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before, you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore

~ my heart betrayed me once again......
~ is it my heart or my burj dubai pride????
~ this too shall pass????
~ what more can i say
~ am i a masochist???
~ why did i let it happen.
~ huhuhuhuhuhu...........

question and answer portion

Question: Are you the one that I'm looking for?
Out of no where Answer: Wonderin'

Question: Ilang buwan... Ilang taon.... Dekada ba yan? sabihin mo......
Out of no where Answer: How will I know?

Statement: You're beautiful.....
Reaction: Yeah, I know, hahhahha! lolz!

Statement: You keep running in my mind...

~ It's a game between me and someone who doesn't want to be part of it. I asked the same question 2 days ago. Coincidence??? or you found this blog. I really wonder.

~ Where's Melody? She can analyze this, far from my perspective.

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Diversion. Scapegoat. Different words same meaning.
Taking the first step is always the hardest part.
Shall I continue....
Regret...
Fear..

Please Lord enlighten me, will I take the step?

wishful thinking

2 days and still counting. Hmmm. Seems like forever. I hope the feeling is mutual. Hoping??!!
“If you're thinking of someone, could that someone be thinking of you?” Now this is really appropriate with me. Hehe!
Wishful thinking, Asa-ness! Hehhehe! Hayzzz!!! Duration? A week, a month, 2 mos.? If only…. (sigh)

Lighter mode. I already have a name for my soooooon to be son, hahhahha! lolz! The questions is, If I'll get married? hahhah! It's Vaughn Ruphert, the story remains a secret for the 3 of us. hahahhha!!! In case a girl popped out it should start with Sheika ______, the second name should be unique and striking. Hahahaha! lolz! :)

heartfelt lines

Beautiful Mind~ I've made the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am...you're all my reasons.~ John Nash

Nights in Rodanthe~Adrienne Willis: There's another kind of love, Amanda. One that gives you the courage to be better than you are, not less than you are. One that makes you feel that anything is possible. I want you to know that you could have that. I want you to hold out for it.

A walk to remember ~
Jamie; you have to promise not to fall in love with me Landon ; that's not a problem.

Illusionist ~ Eisenheim: A real mystery. I saw remarkable things but the only mystery I never solved was... why my heart couldn't let go of you.

Everafter ~Leonardo da Vinci: You cannot leave everything to Fate, boy. She's got a lot to do. Sometimes you must give her a hand.
Henry: I kneel before you not as a prince, but as a man in love... But I would feel like a king if you, Danielle De Barbarac, would be my wife.

10 things i hate about you ~Kat Stratford: I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Moulin Rouge ~ Christian: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

First Knight ~ Arthur: Lancelot, just a thought. A man who fears nothing is a man who loves nothing; and if you love nothing, what joy is there in your life?
Guinevere: I only know one way to love my lord, and that is body and mind and soul.

If Only ~ Samantha Andrews: Ian, I know you have the best intentions, but I feel like I'm a really high second priority to you. That hurts. And the worst part is I'm starting to get used to it.

Fireproof ~ Michael Simmons: The sad part about it is, when most people promise for better or for worse, they really only mean for the better.

It's really good falling in love............

a promised...........

“I’m in a dungeon, living a normal life. Normal is to eat, breath and sleep.
Sporadic action is never an option. I act the way I’m expected. Love is my refuge.
Somebody cares, nurture me each day, and I’m happy with that. If you can some up my life into words it's definitely R O U T I N E.

I was roaming around when I saw a snake headed tantivy on an exit, I stopped. It was there all along, why I didn’t notice it before, why the sudden burst of feeling, I want to get out! I can smell the freedom I’m about to reach. It’s in my heart, I crave for this. I crawled so fast that it hurts.
Patience, I’m almost there. Then out of nowhere, there’s pain, making me numb. I’m helpless. I can’t move. The deceptive snake took his turn.
I gasped some air, then I woke up.”

Believing into something that can never happen is like a dessert waiting for a rain.........




I made a promise, and I'll patiently wait.

God"s promised:

Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles;
they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

quaint feeling....

"Happiness is when your mind thinks through your heart."

So strange, it's been awhile since I felt this. Seems like an aeon. I chose to be stagnant. I chose to be contented. Still, an unforeseen future lies ahead.

I cannot fathom the inner happiness, I wasn't aware that I'm still capable of this. I chose to live in my own world believing, if I try to gasp some air from the outside will make me vulnerable......

Ms. Temptress

Scenario - Husband cheated on his wife

How strong are you to resists sin and evil? Is it always worth to have a taste of what is forbidden? Where does "till death do us part" goes when Ms. Temptress comes in! What does a temptress looks like, will it be a Goddess of Beauty? or just a plain green Fiona (bitter)!

Hatred conquers my heart for the sin and the sinner! No family deserves to be broken, it is united by love and a temptress will wreck havoc unto them . Is this always the case? Then why does marriage exists? Vowed to love and cherish each other, till the end? forever? always?

The only acceptable reason that Jesus gave for ending a marriage:

"But I tell you that anyone who divorces his wife, except for marital unfaithfulness, causes her to commit adultery, and anyone who marries a woman so divorced commits adultery." Matthew 5:32

I always visit a certain blog, it left me alot of unanswered questions;

> Where does conscience and love for the family, when living in the world of lust.
> How much love is needed to keep you sane?
> Is it worth it?
> Family over Ms. Temptress or Ms. Temptress alone (amnesia, i suppose)
> For the Family -> Start anew life? -> How? -> When to start?
> Forgiveness and Acceptance? When?

I admire those who have travelled this road ending up in another detour in their lives, the strength and the faith in the Almighty up above! Hold on to your faith, keep praising His name, He listens, He sees! Everything has its own price. Wait and you will be rewarded!

**Just a Thought - Marriage is the only war where you sleep with the enemy

what a day to start with......

What a day to start. I went to the office waited 10 minutes. Suddenly, OMG, I can't find my drawer keys, I searched my pockets then my bag, no luck! Ok, I'll go back home. To my amazement it wasn’t there. Convinced myself that I’ve lost it, maybe I dropped it in the taxi cab yesterday or maybe I lost it somewhere. But then, why am I not stressed? My laptop was locked in the drawer, the cash was in there too, important papers, etc.! That’s quite strange! Anyway, yes I'm worried, the driver asked if I lost something and I said Yes, anxiety was on my face then! Urg! I arrived in the office, used the other keys hoping it suits the key hole, and then “ding,” I got 300 from the petty cash yesterday requested by an officemate, wait a minute maybe I put the key on the same pocket where the money is, and there it is! Did I really searched my bag then??? hhahahha! lolz!



> 90/10 principle - 10% of is made up of what happens to you, 90% of life is decided by how you react. The 10% is uncontrollable and 90% depends on your reaction. Somehow, if what happened this morning made me angry then I'll be upset the whole day. Lots of "anger trigger" this past few weeks, my temper was about to explode, but I managed, I remember closing my eyes and said "Please Lord, help me control my anger, never let the Devil win!" This is anger management I suppose. :)