bad day for lovey

@7:20am, I'm a bit worried X is not yet online, I wonder why. Then I checked my roaming, got a message, "the vehicle was missing," shocked I called him, "what happened???" He woke up at 5:30am went downstairs to check the car, and it's not there. High probability that it was carnapped. Why there's a lot of bad people out there. So sad, hope the insurance will take care of it, praying that he won't pay anything. He was about to cancel his flight to Mindanao tomorrow, but his boss advised him to go rather than cancelling the flight. Hope he'll be ok, don't know how to cheer him up. I even told him maybe I can pursue my vacation this April but still it didn't work. Everything will be ok.

surprises! surprises!

I hate surprises from other people, except X, coz he's so predictable and he's just learned the word "surprise" last year. Ok, enough of him. Been receiving helluva surprises since last last week in the office, a new week means another bomb to explode. What other news that may still render me at awe. Had a meeting last thursday, all I can see on the list is R, never mind of our reactions, we're eager to see the outcome of Feb. month-end, lols! Bad! Bad! Bad! Hehehe! The pathway is still gray, no worries there's a way out on this tunnel.

On the lighter side, I'm a bit devillish this evening, provoking X to get pissed. Hahahaha! Got a lil' bored so I managed to have fun at the expense of X. Hehehe! We've been chatting and he kept on explaining then I asked him more questions and suggestions, and he patiently tried to answer calmly. Then when I threw a lousy word "tamad kc," he didn'y react for about 5 mins., hahahahaha! So, I made a confession that it was all planned, I imagine what he looks like when he's getting irritated, he'll give me this stern look and keep quite for a moment (maybe, choosing the right words to utter) then when he opens his mouth, I really feel wicked, so guilty. Hahaha! Yeah, I'm afraid when his mad. Lols! Oh well, I miss him!


R-responsibility

today is the day

Last week was an earth shaking for me. Kept mum, promised to do so. I'm a keeper, tell me a secret and promise I'll keep it till the day that I die. A bit addiction on my part, 'coz I'm a bit proud when I keep it for quite a long long time. hihi (giggle). Back to the issue,when he announced the "not so good news."  My mind  went blank, can't go back to work, can't concentrate, what shall I do, my plans were ruined, it's a collateral damaged. Today, I realized last week was just a preparation for all us, I managed to received the message this morning with an open heart. Whatever the Company wants to do with us, it doesn't matter, they can do whatever they please, but one thing's for sure, God is there to catch us. Reasons, lot's of reasons. We may never understand their actions but God's timing is always perfect. I accepted my fate, whatever God will is, with arms wide open I'll embrace it. I had a hard time convincing myself that everything will be ok, to remove all the worries inside me, but I conquered it all. As per Joseph Campbell said "We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." Who knows, there's a better work waiting to unveil. I'm thankful that I gained friends in the office, do you know the feeling that when one is sad then the rest will follow, or when one is happy, everybody is happy. Someone needs to be strong for all of us. We're blessed, this is nothing compare to other people who are suffering, to Haitian's or anywhere in this world who have nothing. Let's keep that in mind. Thank you Lord for what's happening, Thy will be done, and I know we will be fine.

systems down!

Feeling so down today, I'm giving in but can I take it back tomorrow! I don't like it even for a second! Damn! I'll shake it off! Go away! Go away please! Pull me up Lord! I need you. ;(

TY

During simbang gabi, I have specific prayers, my wish for everybody and myself. After Christmas, the soooo impossible wish was granted. So everything became smooth sailing. Thanks to Him. Today, I heard a good news, another wish was granted, it took some time, don't want to lose hope so i kept on praying for it. Thanks God, all in Your time. Hayyyzzz, haven't get the wish for myself. A test of patience, it really makes me sad. 4 months more, I think the answer to my prayer depends on the 4 months. Tricky? Hehe! Hope I can do all my plans for this year, it's easy to stick to it but depends on major things. I forgot to include my health on the list, I'm a bit sick, don't know the cause yet, I need to consult a Mima. Anyways, lets enjoy, even if I have simple things in life it's compensated with full packed of friends, family and my so far away bf.

LDR!

What's the sense of having a relationship when it's ocean apart? Just a bit sad, I'm miles away, been losing every opportunity to know him better by each passing day. Is this middle age crisis? Lol! Hayyyyzzzz, getting emotional and I hate it. I was about to ask my mom before how did she knw that papa was the one, then I hesitated, there's no use comparing it to their time vs our generation. I blame this to my friends who got hitched, I love the concept of wedding, but can't picture what will my wedding should be. Ok, erase sad thoughts! Smile and be happy coz tomorrow is another day to thank and praise God. Thy will be done!